How can i not be lame ? Please I hate myself I need to change help meHow can i not be lame ? Please I hate mys?

Okay so i just turned 14. And my life has been getting better. But ive always been lame. People have hated me since the 4th grade and im going to 8th. They always call me lame. I like anime and manga, Wrestling, and rock music. Everyone here calls the music i like white people music (esappaly the screamo) plus im black so its weird. I have people tell me all the time im lame (yesterday for example) people call me every damn name in the book. Punk, nerd (im really smart, but suck at math so people get angry at me), geek, stupid, stanky, musty, horny everything. Girls try to kick me in the balls and some do it and it feels like they've crushed them (there okay) i wanna be Scene but my mom wont let me even look like it. But i still wanna act like it. Everyone (incudeing my family) says i dont pay attation and im to hyper. I dont have ADD or ADHD. Help me change I hate myself just help me please !!!! I hate who i am just help me please :(Okay so i just turned 14. And my life has been getting better. But ive always been lame. People have hated me since the 4th grade and im going to 8th. They always call me lame. I like anime and manga, Wrestling, and rock music. Everyone here calls the music i like white people music (esappaly the screamo) plus im black so its weird. I have people tell me all the time im lame (yesterday for example) people call me every damn name in the book. Punk, nerd (im really smart, but suck at math so people get angry at me), geek, stupid, stanky, musty, horny everything. Girls try to kick me in the balls and some do it and it feels like they've crushed them (there okay) i wanna be Scene but my mom wont let me even look like it. But i still wanna act like it. Everyone (incudeing my family) says i dont pay attation and im to hyper. I dont have ADD or ADHD. Help me change I hate myself just help me please !!!! I hate who i am just help me please :(